August of 2008 I started following someone’s blog.
Today she asked me to stop.
It’s hard to explain the feeling I have right now. I suppose its grief. Even though I never met her in person, I came to care about her. In someways she became to me the collage student that I imagine Nigel might be.
I feel loss and sadness.
I gave part of myself to her.
The questions is, was it worth it. Did I get enough out of it, did she get enough out of it, to make the pain I feel now worth it?
I can’t answer that question, but I have to believe it was. I found her site by Gods leading. I helped send her on a mission trip this summer. I think my words may have had some impact on her – I hope for the better.
When God leads me to a place for a season, I need to have faith that I was there for the right amount of time, and thank him for the time I did have with her.
And maybe God knew I needed to feel a little more pain to help me finish my story.