{"id":70,"date":"2009-08-14T01:38:32","date_gmt":"2009-08-14T05:38:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ssl4.glhserver.com\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/?page_id=70"},"modified":"2016-10-19T21:14:52","modified_gmt":"2016-10-20T04:14:52","slug":"my-loss","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/about-douglas-g-clarke\/my-loss","title":{"rendered":"My Loss"},"content":{"rendered":"
Eight years ago I lost my father to cancer after years of battling.<\/div>\n
In October of 2007 I lost my 15 year old son to a bicycling accident.<\/div>\n
Coming through these two experience I have felt a lot, thought a lot, grieved a lot, learned a lot, and I’ve started writing a lot.<\/div>\n
It is through my writing that I have kept my balance through the ups and downs. My blog entries were a dumping ground for my emotions, my beliefs and my thoughts.<\/div>\n
In December of 2008 my writing turned towards a novel that I started shortly after my father’s death, but didn’t know how to write. After my son’s death, I had the heart needed to put the words onto paper, and the experience to fill in the holes.<\/div>\n
I am sad that my father had to die before his grandkids really had a chance to get to know him, but at the same time I am so thankful that God used my father’s death to prepare me for my son’s death.<\/div>\n
I don’t believe that God caused my son to die, or somehow decided that it was just time for him to come home, but I do believe that God uses the tragedies in our lives and somehow brings about good through them.<\/div>\n
My dad’s death prepared me for my son’s death. My son’s death prepared me to touch the lives of the dozens of people that I’ve shared my story with.<\/div>\n
I thank God for using my life despite how I mess it up, and at the same time I’m fearful of what I might be prepared to face now. I can’t, or perhaps won’t, imagine anything worse than loosing my son. But if I do, I know that holding onto my God and my friends would allow me to survive it.<\/div>\n

In 2001,\u00a0I lost my father to cancer after years of battling.<\/p>\n

In October of 2007, I lost my 15 year old son to a bicycling accident.<\/p>\n

Coming through these two experience I have felt a lot, thought a lot, grieved a lot, learned a lot, and I’ve started writing a lot.<\/p>\n

It is through my writing that I have kept my balance through the ups and downs. My blog entries were a dumping ground for my emotions, my beliefs and my thoughts.<\/p>\n

In December of 2008 my writing turned towards a novel that I started shortly after my father’s death, but didn’t know how to write. After my son’s death, I had the heart needed to put the words onto paper, and the experience to fill in the holes.<\/p>\n

I am sad that my father had to die before his grandkids really had a chance to get to know him, but at the same time I am so thankful that God used my father’s death to prepare me for my son’s death.<\/p>\n

I don’t believe that God caused my son to die, or somehow decided that it was just time for him to come home, but I do believe that God uses the tragedies in our lives and somehow brings about good through them.<\/p>\n

My dad’s death prepared me for my son’s death. My son’s death prepared me to touch the lives of the dozens of people that I’ve shared my story with.<\/p>\n

I thank God for using my life despite how I mess it up, and at the same time I’m fearful of what I might be prepared to face now. I can’t, or perhaps won’t, imagine anything worse than loosing my son. But if I do, I know that holding onto my God and my friends would allow me to survive it.<\/p>\n

If you would like to experience my walk through the loss of my son, a good place to start is\u00a0<\/span>http:\/\/douglasgclarke.me\/mile_markers\/Entries\/2007\/12\/22_A_wreck_along_the_way.html<\/a>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Eight years ago I lost my father to cancer after years of battling. In October of 2007 I lost my 15 year old son to a bicycling accident. Coming through these two experience I have felt a lot, thought a lot, grieved a lot, learned a lot, and I’ve started writing a lot. It is … Continue reading “My Loss”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":68,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/70"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=70"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/70\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":563,"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/70\/revisions\/563"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/68"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/douglasgclarke.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=70"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}